From Death to Life

-A book my daddy made me promise to write for him.

While in the hospital in Florida, my daddy took my hand after I had fed him dinner and told me so peacefully that he wanted me to write a book about his life. I will never forget this. It was such a shocker yet at the same time an honor to write something so special that he wanted to share with the world. My heart was breaking of course because I was in disbelief that he was already talking about leaving us. Or atleast comfortable enough to share this information with his daughter despite his flaws. I just stood strong and told him I would do whatever he wanted me to do. He smiled and told me to listen very closely. I took a deep breath and listened.

He explained that he was in this point of his life where he was stressed to the max over things that truly mattered to him. He explained. He wanted to get over the fact that he had an extremely hard life. He then went into detail. Anytime I asked him to explain more, he did, as he spoke softly and slowly. I never knew what was going through his mind all these years. The battles he overcame and the loss of so much he endured, as a child, father and person was overwhelming even for me. He was protecting me from it all. And all his successes that he achieved and maintained as a worker, father, husband and friend was touching. From past to present, from childhood to teen years, from healthy lifestyle to his cancerous body, he was able to share what he hid from me all these years. Realizing this might be the only chance he could get to sit with me and explain his side, his story. Even though we didn't go into detail about some major facets of his life (still protecting me), he made sure to leave me with what needed to be written. 

As I took notes, he then went into telling me to include this as well; that he was very proud of the woman I have become and the mother I have become for my two children. That he was so blessed to be able to raise a child into a beautiful woman he always dreamed about. That he enjoyed every moment with his grandchildren and will always hold those special memories with them in his heart. That he taught me well and that he would never want me to make the same mistakes that he did in life. Most importantly, that God has a plan and this was it; for him, for my mom, for me and for my children. 

Although I didn't understand at that time while holding him close, I had come to accept that there was closure right there between he and I, and I, was able to tell him face to face myself, as he was feeding me his life story, how proud of him I was to have such a wonderful daddy and amazing fighter of a father. That the 27 years of my life with himwill  always hold a special place in my heart. That I am who I am today, because of him. 

He smiled and made me promise to write his book... in extreme detail... dedicated to him, called; From Death to Life. I didn't understand what he meant at first, it seemed a bit hardh, but after I heard his whole life story and how he explained we are only on this earth for one purpose and one purpose only, I knew exactly what he meant. And today, he is living.